They say that life does not play fair. Life never plays by the rules. Ever. It cheats. It steals. It moves the goalposts. And just when you think you’ve scored, or achieve some forward progress, life drops a “flag on the play” and you’re penalized another ten yards. A cancer diagnosis at a youthful age, burying the love of your life, or the victim of church hurt. And when that happens, you wonder where the strength comes to get back out onto that field just to take another hit.
The story of Joseph may shed some light in this dark room as a person who was the victim of life playing by its own set of rules. Joseph, in the face of constant disaster, is a story of enduring faith.
Joseph’s story begins with his father, Jacob, and four wives. Rachel was Jacob’s favored wife and Joseph was the son born to Rachel. Though Joseph had ten older brothers, he was his father’s favorite born to his favorite wife. One does not have to search too far for the seed of family conflict to sprout. Jacob showers Joseph with preferential treatment, giving him an extravagant gift by way of a multicolored coat. Joseph dreams his brothers will bow down to him and seems to believe that his dreams are indeed foreshadowing reality. And then Joseph rats out his brothers to his father. Yes, we have some good dysfunctional family conflict sewn and woven into the fabric of Joseph’s story.
Joseph’s brothers hate him. No kidding, right? Their unimaginable hate fuels such a disdain that they devise a plan to murder him. Throwing him into a cistern as a holding pen, another opportunity arises to keep their hands clean and their conscience guilt-free. They sell him to distant cousins, the Midianites, who traffic Joseph to Egypt, selling him on the slave auction market.
Joseph is purchased by an Egyptian official and is given access and authority to his entire house. Just when things might start looking up, the wife of the slave owner tries to seduce Joseph. And when Joseph, holding onto his integrity, rebuffs her advances, she cries out, falsely accusing him, and weaving a preposterous story involving a coat. Another coat. Joseph is arrested and thrown into prison where he will rot for the next twenty years wiping out any memory him of his existance.
Two things are worth noting at this point in the story. First, Joseph never abandons God. Joseph may not be the vocal person of faith like Paul in the Philippian jail singing hymns, but he certainly recognizes God’s steady hand in his life. His words to his brothers, over thirty years later, are profoundly insightful, “You intended to harm me, but God intended it for good . . .” (Gen. 50:20). Joseph was able to endure, wait, and still long to hope, especially when all around him said otherwise.
Secondly, and maybe more importantly, God never abandons Joseph. A recurring statement in this story is that God is with Joseph (e.g., Gen. 39:21,23). He is a fellow prisoner with Joseph, sitting with him in his loneliness. More so, God makes sure Joseph is seen with favor by those around him. Even if Joseph would have quoted Edmond Dantes, “I have given up on God,” Abbe Faria words would have trumped Joseph and reinforced his guardrails, “It doesn’t matter. God has not given up on you.”
God does not give up on the suffering.
Ms. Ruby’s faith endured and persevered through life fires, fires that were bent on consuming her, only purifying her faith in the end. At age twenty-four she was diagnosed with breast cancer. For 1954 medicine, just about all cancer diagnoses were terminal. Just about. I can only imagine the horror Ms. Ruby experienced knowing that as she stood on the threshold of her adult life, she saw it coming to an end. Thankfully, it didn’t. She underwent a radical mastectomy and began a seventy-year cancer survivor story. A handful of years later she met and married Robert Fisher, who owned a local lumber company, and they began their life together. Soon, a little boy named Bob was born, followed by a gorgeous little girl, Lucile, and then to round out their family, a second son, Jimmy, was born. They built a home on Fisher Avenue, and everything was right with the world, before Ms. Ruby was suddenly widowed, forced to run the family business and raise her ten-, nine-, and six-year-old children. As she was navigating single parenting at a time when single parenting was viewed suspiciously, if not a stigma, often unwelcomed, and might be labeled, “unfit,” usually lacking a support system, she ran full force into a betrayal of trust, facing unwarranted accusation from people who should have protected her.
For most people they would have buckled under the pressure of what life dealt her. She could have waved the white flag or forfeited the game. She didn’t. With every reason to walk away from God and his church, she stayed. She nurtured her faith, clung to God, and believed that God never gave up on her. Others might have. Others did. God didn’t. He never abandoned her. He never forsook her.
More so, Ms. Ruby refused to play the victim card by sitting in her own misery perpetuating how unfair life is. Partly, because she was a child of the Great Depression, she chose to be defined, neither by her cancer, nor by her widow-status, nor by her betrayal, but by faith. Instead, she embraced the story Jesus told of the widow who appeared every day before the unjust judge and advocated her own case until justice prevailed. In doing so, she earned the respect of her family, church, and community as they “. . . rose up and called her ‘blessed’” (Prov. 31:28).
The story continues.
The writer of Ecclesiastes, the Greek word we get for “church,” opens his melancholy message with these words, “Vanity of vanities.” The meaning of the image is that life is like a mist or vapor where you reach out to grab, and just when you think you have a hold of it, whatever “it” is, it slips through your fingers, leaving you empty. It’s all in vain. Other translations do their best to capture that meaning, so that life is “Absolutely futile,” or “Smoke, nothing but smoke,” or “Meaningless! Everything is meaningless!” or “All is to no purpose,” or “Perfectly pointless,” or “It is useless.” No matter what we do, according to the writer of Ecclesiastes, life will not fulfill your dreams, and in fact having dreams might be your best outcome since so many dreams crash into nightmares.
The writer unfolds his life experiences as that the emptiness within him was never filled. Never. He pursued pleasures, laughter, building projects, wealth, upward mobility, wisdom and scholarship, business adventures, and even the writing of books. Yet in the end, he was just as empty now as he was then. In some ways, he felt worse because he witnessed the oppression, the futility of toiling in the hot sun, the betrayal of friends, the righteous perishing while the wicked prosper, and the ultimate destination that no matter who you are or what you accomplish – remember, he writes before Jesus – death has the final say.
Amid the writer’s unfolding down-cycle of futility, he encourages two things. One, remember the God of your youth (Ecc. 12:1ff). Remember, not just recall, but embrace the days when life was simpler, and faith fueled your fortunes. We might say, remember the days at church camp, or that mission trip, or gathered with the worshiping church, or sat in Bible class engaging the Word, or when you broke bread with believers, or the day of your baptism. Those were the days that defined you, shaped you, and offered the hope in which we live. Reclaim those days because they were not as empty, meaningless, futile, pointless, or in vain as you think they were.
Secondly, sprinkled throughout his message like good seasoning, the writer tells us that when life gives us that joy or laughter, to embrace that moment for it will not last forever. Those moments are from God. And though moments are as fleeting as mist is burned off by the sun, the memory endures forever. As he says, “I know that there is nothing better for people than to be happy and to do good while they live. That each of them may eat and drink and find satisfaction in all their toll – this is the gift of God” (3: 12-13).
So, like you, I have my own memories of Ms. Ruby that occurred in a moment in time and were, like the sun burning off the morning fog, are dissipated forever. But like wildflowers that return each spring, those memories resurface, and they warm my heart because these memories are rooted in Ms. Ruby’s character.
Ms. Ruby read her Bible, and with prayer as her cornerstone to faith, she found the means to express her faith. She committed herself to gathering with the saints, and in later life learned to navigate Live Streaming. When holy dissatisfaction sat in, she started and taught a ladies Bible class, organizing baby showers, ensuring food was prepared for those who were shut in, and writing cards to encourage people, and giving a voice to women. Her legacy remains intact as that class still meets today and those ministries continues.
The holidays have always been a staple for her family, especially her Thanksgiving and Christmas meals. In the early days, she prepared most of the meal with a spread that could feed an army. She had a detailed list of all the food that needed prepared and marked them off her list when finished. Nothing was going to be left behind. She meticulously made bread rolls folding each role over in half, baptizing them in butter. She knew one of my favorite post-meal treats was a piece of honey ham wrapped in her bread roll. Regarding her table, she never limited who sat with her. Even when thirty family members showed up, she always had room for any non-family member.
In December of 1989 Cile and I were living with Ms. Ruby while we were transitioning between Cookeville and beginning graduate work in Memphis. After Thanksgiving and then Christmas leftovers, I had had my fill of leftover turkey and microwaved stuff. One night I was frustrated, telling Cile, “I don’t think I can take anymore leftovers.” Cile sympathized, but what do you do when we had no money for fast food? Ms. Ruby, on the other hand, must have read my mind as she came home from school with a large peperoni pizza from Pizza Hit, saying, “I thought we all needed a break from leftovers tonight.”
On the night I proposed to Cile, I drove up to Carthage as the ring had been securely placed in her lockbox. On the Friday of Spring Break, I came up to the house, changed clothes, and went on a run. When I got back, she was home and had the ring ready. I showered and dressed for the evening, expecting to have a conversation with her about marrying her daughter. To my surprise the topic never came up as she had a big bowl of popcorn ready for me, to which I interpreted as having her blessing. Popcorn, and back in the day Dr. Pepper, was always a staple she stocked for me in her home.
Ms. Ruby carried respect with her like most Christians carry a Bible. She never inserted herself into the decisions that took her daughter and grandchildren up to six hours drive away from her. She didn’t like it, but respected our decisions. On another note, she always welcomed my parents into her home. More so, after my father died, she frequently asked about my mother’s well being, asking, “How is Mom Partlow?” and “Is Mom Partlow coming in to see me when she flies into Nashville? I have a room for her if she needs one.” And finally, when I published my book, I had low expectations that Ms. Ruby might enjoy the book, much less read it, as she is not familiar with Tolkien’s Middle-earth. Out of respect for me, she read my book. Admittedly, she said, “I’m having trouble following the parts about Lord of the Rings.” Then she read it again. And during the third reading, she told Cile, “I’m really starting to understand what Jon is saying, and I like it.”
I probably could say more about mom, a lot more, but we are out of time. But if you want to honor Ms. Ruby Fisher in the coming weeks, here are a couple of ideas. You could probably cook a big meal for your family (like corn bread and beans), or attend your church, or watch the Vols play (full disclosure: she turned into a die-hard Titans fan, who’d have thunk?), or plant flowers in a garden, or feed birds which were all part of her pastime. Or try this, find a single mom and do something to encourage her. For one of Ms. Ruby’s favorite verses was James 1:27, “Religion that God our Father accepts as pure and faultless is this: to look after widows in their distress.”
